This is probably an offshoot of something I’ve written before but I don’t care… I want to talk about it directly…. The struggle to NOT.
DO YOU HAVE ANY IDEA HOW HARD IT IS TO NOT TO GET “LIT” (as it is referred to now)? I’ve never smoked before but goodness, the effs given seem to be slim to none after people light up. I’d love to experience that immediate zen-like peace I keep hearing about. And the snacks that you chase it down with?!?! Geesh…
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS TO NOT BE THE DRUNKEN ONE? To NOT drink and just ride the wave? The party is never poppin’ when you’re the only on the boat. I gave up. I avoid all boats and bodies of water now. Lol.
DO YOU KNOW HOW HARD IT IS NOT TO GO TO FIRST BASE, SECOND BASE, geezee, NOT EVEN TO PUT A GLOVE ON?!?!? I mean I’ve been mammogramed, poked, prodded and everything else medical examiners do to boobs…so DO YOU NOT THINK I WANT TO EXPERIENCE THE PLEASURING SIDE OF THAT? The side that feels like “woah” according to my more “experienced” friends…? DO YOU KNOW….HOW HARD IT IS TO NOT BE FONDLED WHEN THERE ARE WILLING AND ABLE GENTLEMAN CALLERS EVERYWHERE? Good God from a burning bush on Zion!
It’s real for the inexperienced in these streets. Lol. Why?...Because we live in a generation where there seems to be no struggle NOT to do....well....any and everything.
8 Mile Eminem style -> Guys, I am (pain) fully aware that there are a lot of places I haven’t been. For a while, though I knew better, I would beat myself up for not knowing what the heck some of you were talking, crying, laughing and joking about. I didn’t like that I couldn’t relate to your cravings. I mean surely by now, I’d have been there before right?
Wrong. I know - shocker.
It took me awhile to understand the significance of my lack of experience and “my” story. Not that I wanted a struggle, but there was a reason it was so hard for me to be ok with what I just DIDN’T KNOW. I figured it out. Here it is…
Whatever it is, that pull, that desire that immutable urge that convinced some to just GO FOR IT is what I normally fight against – Everyday! From stories, to other people’s experiences and regrets, it is safe to say that’s no easy fight to win (obviously). My struggle to just NOT is just as real as their struggle to NOT proceed, to NOT smoke that, to NOT say yes, to NOT lay down, to just….NOT.
THIS IS NO EASY TASK! The Word warns of temptation. Let me be clear -I AM NOT EXCEMPT FROM THAT…temptation that is. To be honest, it is a tad disturbing when people think otherwise of my “struggle” or nonchalantly oversimplify my walk. My “no” to what starts an addiction is just as strong as someone else’s “no” to a vice or something they routinely given into.
I had to learn that if I was going to do this walk, this Christian thing, I had to NOT let anyone make me feel small or lacking because I haven’t been there. Wherever there is… The Word says “Count it all joy, my brothers, when you meet trials of various kinds, for you know that the testing of your faith produces steadfastness. And let steadfastness have its full effect, that you may be perfect and complete, lacking in nothing.” James 1:2-4. I am to count it all joy that my stories are free of pains God never meant for us to experience anyway. I am not to belittle myself and live up to the standards of man. God is it. That has to be enough, guys. That’s the reward. Trying to be as pleasing to god as “I” humanly can be. I’ve got nothing else for ya…and I’m ok with that.
A friend of mine used a pretty good metaphor to sum up how I felt being on the outside looking in most times. He said “it’s kind of like everyone else is diseased but they’re treating you like the diseased one…” and he hit it right on the nail. That’s exactly how it feels. Maybe you can relate…? I promise you, you’re not diseased even though people see your “virgin ears” as icky imperfections and flinch. You are good! à Too bad we aren’t contagious. #PettyButTrue
This blog is not knocking anyone who has been convinced and persuaded by the hypnotizing and appetizing beauty of certain temptations. You all have a ministry that will touch millions of people I can’t reach with my particular ministry. Hebrews 2:18 says “For because he himself has suffered when tempted, he is able to help those who are being tempted.” YOU WILL DO GREAT THINGS AND WHAT THE ENEMY MEANT FOR YOUR DEMISE GOD WILL SHAPE AND MORPH FOR YOUR –and so many others’- GOOD.
This is not a “my struggle is bigger than your struggle” contest. We’re all on the same team….struggling at something from day-to-day. Lol. Hashtag: #thestruggletojustNOT. Shout out to the grace and voice of God because truthfully, we all suck and fall short every day; having been exposed to certain fires or not.
This blog is to shed light on and hopefully offer up a genuine and clear understanding of what some of us on the other side of the common fight, known as the struggle, go through. We are not exempt from temptations. If anything, we’re overloaded with them. They’re thrown at us day in and day out just like they’re thrown at you.
Fortunately, growing up, I was surrounded by wise counsel. Everyone does not have this luxury and I am grateful for it. Sometimes those who don’t struggle to “just not” never knew they should. I was taught to look for the escapes provided and pursue the power God said I had in my abilities to just NOT. (script. ref: 1 Corinthians 10:13) It is not something I take pride in because I am called to do this, but is something I have to remind myself of daily when the world chooses to look at me as the “diseased one.”
I am a blueprint. ;) The original. To those of you who can relate to my story, you are the blueprint. The original. To those who have a different story, you are a blueprint. YOU ARE AN ORIGINAL. Rock it on the not-so-easy- to-rock-it days. Our struggles are REAL but so are our abilities to MAINTAIN THE STANDARD according to God’s Word. ;)
My ministry is based around what I do know about what I don’t know. ;) I’ll take it.
From one believer to the next,