ALRIGHT! So as much as I've tried to shift the direction and focal point of my writing from relationships and especially waiting until marriage to have sex, God is pressing it on my heart to continue the conversation. I haven't written in a while, a bit worried that I was becoming repetitive and un-relatable and wanted to switch it up. WELP…that was sort of short lived. Lol.
I kept trying to revamp and reshape things. Nothing was working. It wasn't until I sat there, salty and feeling less than enough that God asked me "what do you already have? What have I already given you? What has shaped your walk and better understanding of me Rhe’ Through what lens did you look? This is AN EASY ONE!" and it clicked. God gave me the focus, fight and desire to wait until marriage to have sex. It’s much bigger than saying no and avoiding temptation. Deciding to wait really shaped my whole perception of God and gave me the discipline needed to stay the course in almost every area of my life. I don’t wear it as a belt of pride. It’s more of a “thank you.”
There are many my story will never reach. I can’t relate to everyone and they can’t all relate to me; had to shift my focus from my reach and simplify it all. What my perspective does is open a door for me to better focus on who God is FOR ME and in the process, share my understanding, offer my vision to those whose are a little blurred and express what God has done for me through it. That's it. That's the task.
I'm learning that ministry is not about a pitch. It's not about what I can do for others in regards to Christ that I haven't already done or am doing for myself. Ministry is not about likes, views, or sales. It's not about convincing people to be like me or about who agrees with me. It’s not about what anyone thinks… Ministry starts with YOU and what God has placed on YOUR heart to experience and with His blessing…tell.
Guys. I had to stop looking everywhere else for my purpose, my point and my platform and discover what it is that comes naturally to me. I discovered that what made me different, what made me feel like the odd one out, what once confused me was the very thing that would help me spread who God was in my own way. As believers, we are all called to share the gospel. YOU DON'T NEED A CLASS ON DISCIPLESHIP AND WITNESSING WHEN YOU LIVE AND LOVE THE LIFE YOU LIVE THROUGH CHRIST NATURALLY. We talk about the things we love. We talk about the things that help us and get us through. For me, waiting until marriage to have sex, talking about its benefits and keeping my convictions my own is what gives me the OK to speak on it; to live it; to use it. That will never feel like work. It is absolutely recession proof. It will never grow old. It’ll sustain me in moments where my basic humanity can’t.
So if you're searching for what God wants you to do or simply how you can minister to people authentically; or how to just keep busy, think about what God has done for you. What has He given you that comes so naturally you almost forgot it "wasn't" the norm? Whatever that is, that's YOUR ministry. That’s what you go with and do it like you’ve always done it only now, intentionally.
Your story is all that’s needed. The organization, the incorporation, the crowd will come. Either way, the fulfillment and freedom that comes from doing what you already do, only now with purpose, is out of this world. You’ll grow to feel less and less empty and like you’re floating. Forget about what everyone else is saying and listen to your passion. Not everything that flows out of your heart is deceiving. It is very possible for what you love to be what pushes you to your next level. Guard it and GO FOR IT.
I had to learn it..
Romans 12:6-8 : Having gifts that differ according to the grace given to us, let us use them: if prophecy, in proportion to our faith; if service, in our serving; the one who teaches, in his teaching; the one who exhorts, in his exhortation; the one who contributes, in generosity; the one who leads, with zeal; the one who does acts of mercy, with cheerfulness.